Problems of Being a Gemini

I'm a soul composed of twins

Constantly at war, but no one wins

Don't know which one to call "I"

I believe its because I'm a Gemini

One's original while other's a mimic

One's believer while other's a cynic

First one's shy and meek as a squirrel

Latter's so bold, it puts me in peril

Which one am I among the two ?

I don't know which one to choose

However, I relate with the first one more

Other one's just a demon that I deplore

I love rain,  he loves sun

I hate parties, for him its fun

For him life's an eternal spring

While I feel I'm just a broken string

But believe me, when I say he's evil

For his means, he'll deal with the devil

He scorns romance and finds it farce

The feeling of love, he just cant parse

I contrarily, am good to extremes

Cant wrong someone, even in dreams

I am an utterly hopeless romantic

For me, this love is kind of mantic

Still its wrong to say who I really am

When we're like two flaps of a clam

No matter how much I do hate him

Sometimes, I do require his courage and vim

All this I wrote was to show the turmoil

Carrying them inside, I struggle and toil

Who am I ? Just can't identify

Such is the dilemma of being a gemini